So... i have this problem, i care about people. now i know that sounds like some self righteous egotistical thing to say, but really... i do but more in a selfish way... i'm intrigued by people, by why people do things, and i love helping people, i think because its me influencing there lives, and i think i just enjoy being a part of peoples lives... knowing that there lives would be different if i didn't do anything. so don't get me wrong, i'm selfish... but it makes me happy to make others happy... so why not. it does tend to get me into trouble sometimes... i've learned a lot, and have changed my ways a bit, but still i put myself in situations where i'm the middle-man... because i do enjoy figuring people out, and normally in middle-man situations i have the opportunity to show off my talents to the one person(s) who would appreciate it, because they are the one other person who focused that much on that other person... but i focus that much on EVERYONE! ok... not everyone... just people i deem interesting. so i'm sure i'm missing a ton of crazy interesting people. oh well, such is life... i do have to say that i've learned much, i think the next thing i need to learn is to be secure w/out having to prove myself to anyone... i think that is probably one of my biggest social problems right now, feeling i have to prove myself, wanting people to see how awesome i am... hahaha and to tell me that im awesome. sure everyone's like that, but i realize it, and i want to change it.
so i think i'll try.
ps. realize i am awesome! ;)
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