God and Dreams

so every once in a while i have these deeply spiritual dreams, where i fight evil. i know it sounds stupid, "fighting evil" but its true... i've learned a lot about myself in these dreams in the past... so normally i try and listen to them... and i actually haven't had one in years, probably due to the fact that i was actively running away from God. well last night i had a dream, the first part was kind of graphic, so i wont go into any detail... lets just say that i was not fighting... i was going along with it, then i realized these girls were demons and they were pulling me closer to something... all i can think of is that it would be hell. then in another dream i went to visit this guy i know's house... (which the house in the dream totally wasn't his) and he wasn't there, so i left, as i was leaving there was this girl leaving as well... and she kinda screamed and started chasing me... it was a kinda evil scream... well then it turned out that i was in a culdisack w/out any enterence or exit... there was this one house with all these chain fences around it... so eventually i went in there, and she followed easily breaking the fences down, or throwing them open... and i kept running trying to get away... i ended up in this bedroom.. it was dark and the only light was this redish tinted light comming from the streetlamps outside... and she came in and started circling me... when i realized... "why am i running? i have GOD on my side" so i stood my ground, but i was curious as to why she was attacking me so openly instead of seducing me like earlier in the dream. why not sneak up and attack me, or be sly about it. i kept asking her, and she would change shape and try to do what i mentioned at the time... but it was weak feints because i now remembered the power that flowed through me, and then i took hold of her head, and said something weird like, "by the holy spirit send this physical body to the grave, and send this demon back to the firey pits of hell to be burned for eternety by the GLORY OF GOD!" and she screamed and crumbled like ash... and then lots more started coming in throught the doors... lots more... and it was more than i could handle... but somehow i was. then i woke up... and i was too late to go to church (even though earlier i woke up with my alarm and couldn't decide if i should go to church or not... i kept going back and forth wanting to go, and then not wanting to go, then i fell asleep again and had this dream... or the last part of this dream at least.

so yeah... like i said i've head dreams like this before... and normaly what happens is im crazy weak and i can't fight them... and then i realize i have God in me, and i have the power of the holy spirit, or (more often in the past) the blood of Jesus Christ (crazy powerful stuff). this dream gives me heart in more than one way, it lets me realize that God is not ashamed of me, or mad at me, but just wants to use me, and can't unless i realize the power he has to use me... and that i need to take hold of it, and USE IT and go forward in His name.
so, i wake up today, not broken and beaten, but a bit wiser... and hopfully a bit more prepaired.