Groundhogs Day

Apparently Groundhogs Day was yesterday, im glad no one told me about it... but its cool, luckily i did not re-live the day over again, VERY lucky. It would have really sucked if yesterday was the day i re-lived over and over again... and then i started thinking about what exactly i'd do if i could re-live a day over and over again... i'd probably talk to more people, i'd obviously not go to work, i'd say things to people to see there reaction a lot more, crazy things... cause basically it all just comes down to no consequences ... what would i do, if there were no long term consequences... a LOT of doing things to see peoples reactions... im very curious about that... about how people would react if i did or said certain things to them. im not sure why, but it fascinates me beyond anything else if asked what kind of super power i would want, i'd choose time travel (and by time travel i mean the tree branch theory where every decision is a split in the branch so i could travel up and down and up another branch through time) and i'd choose that for the very same reason... no consequences, so that i could test people, and see there reactions... why am i so fascinated by this? im really not all that sure, the more i think about it the more i realize im probably holding a lot back for fear of peoples reactions... which, in one sense is good, but in another its not. I realize one can not go around testing peoples reactions or everyone would hate you... if you went up to someone and slapped them in the face for no reason what so ever... they would be none to happy... but if you could do that, and then go back in time and NOT do it... it wouldn't matter... and you could see exactly just how they reacted... and i guess a lot of it stems to my insecurities with myself, if i find some girl attractive i think, "you should go up and tell her you think so" but then i think "dont do that she'd think you were a freak" but honestly? would she? who knows, no one will ever know... because im always afraid to do it. honestly... i think fear runs my life than i tend to believe... i think i may have to make moves to correct this.

dont be fearful!