Monday, August 31, 2009

I do, in fact, have a very odd music taste...

Well... today i decided to listen to my top 25 most listened to songs in itunes... little did i know how much of an odd collection i had made by doing so. here it goes:

1. Dance, Dance - Fall Out Boy - 71 plays
2. Mountain Dew - The Clancy Brothers - 68 plays
3. The City is at War - Cobra Starship - 68 plays
4. Rocks Tonic Juice Magic - Saves the Day - 62 plays
5. Time to Dance - Panic! At the Disco - 60 plays
6. Beer, Beer, Beer - The Clancy Brothers - 52 plays
7. Golden Brown - The Stranglers - 52 plays
8. Jessie's Girl - Rick Springfield - 50 plays
9. Inside Out - Eve 6 - 48 plays
10. The Futile - Say Anything - 43 plays
11. Tim Finnegan's Wake - The Clancy Brothers - 42
12. Boys of Summer - Don Henley - 42 plays
13. Now that you're Home - Manchester Orchestra - 39 plays
14. Always on my mind - Phantom Planet - 38 plays
15. Nobody Move, Nobody Get Hurt - We Are Scientists - 38 plays
16. Goodnight Goodnight - Hot Hot Heat - 37 plays
17. Sink to the Beat - Cursive - 31 plays
18. The Tension and the Terror - Straylight Run -28 plays
19. This Scene is Dead - We Are Scientists - 28 plays
20. Johnny, I hardly Knew Ya - Dropkick Murphys - 27 plays
21. 99 Red Balloons - Goldfinger - 27 plays
22. Devil's Dance Floor - Flogging Molly - 26 plays
23. Wolves at Night - Manchester Orchestra - 26 plays
24. Inaction - We are Scientists - 24 plays
25. Intergalactic - Beastie Boys - 23 plays


odd... i know... now, the first 3 where set as my alarm for a little while... so there numbers are a bit skewed. so i really think my #1 top actually PLAYED song would be Rocks Tonic Juice Magic by Saves the Day. Why in the world Intergalactic by the Beastie Boys is even on there... i do not know... i find it quite odd. quite odd indeed.

Friday, August 21, 2009

2 dreams 1 night both AWESOME

alright, in this first dream i had last night, i was in this place... it was a large room with lots of people, and i remember there being a couch over on one wall a couple couches actually... and i was standing amongst these people, it was very loud talking to this girl i i know. i knew she liked me and i was trying to decide if i liked her or not all acting like i did, but never actually saying anything to the effect. i think she started to get on my nerves and so, to put her off i kissed her forehead and said, "you're like a sister to me, i love you so much" but she didn't want that, she wanted to marry me so she got upset and walked away. So i walked over to this other girl who i guess i was interested in... who was infact kristen bell.
she was sitting on this couch with this other guy drawing on his arm, i remember being kinda put off by this, thinking about how she was suppose to be with me, why was she all touch this guys arm... but i didn't say anything, cause in real life that's how i am... if im jealous about something, i normally tell myself im being stupid. So i sat down next to her and she was talking to me about all the things we were going to do once we were married, i sat there thinking, "wait... what did i just get myself into i should have stayed with that other girl" then i woke up and realized i almost married kristen bell and was very pleased... but seeing as how it was 5:30 am i decided to go back to sleep.

DREAM TWO

So in dream two i started out in this room... with a bunch of people, and i think i was trying to get something from this room... or house or something. i had this small gun, which im pretty sure didn't have any bullets in it, in my pocket. see, i know something happened before this part in the dream, but i can't remember it. which is unfortunate... oh well. so i realize im going to have to steal this thing in this house, and that the people there wouldn't have let me. so i pull out this gun, and start telling people to stay calmn and to start moving into the kitchen... and im all scared that someone will realize the gun doesn't have any ammo. so i get them all to go to the kitchen and realize there, next to me leaning up against a book shelf was a old shotgun, and for some reason i knew it was loaded. so i grab that and put the small gun in the back of my pants and point the shotgun at everyone, and just to prove i meant buisness i shot a shot in the air (though we're inside... i dont recall putting a hole in the ceiling) well this one guy decided to take advantage of the fact that i'd taken a shot, and i had to pump the gun again in order to shoot again, and he came at me... but i was fast, and pumped the gun before he got to me... so he backed off... i then locked them in this room, so i could go about finding this item i was looking for... in the back of my head i felt that someone was going to come soon, and i had to hurry before they got there... it gets kinda foggy after that... i found this box with something in it... it was a wooden box about the size of a match box but inside was a full sized blanket... and there was an old man there telling me that i had to not open the box yet... and something... i dont know... it all fades from there. thats sad.

but hey! i almost married kristin bell!

the end

Wednesday, August 12, 2009

My Essentials

So I've seen a great deal of images like this on flickr, and blogs and the such... and for some reason unknown to me they intrigued me... i like the idea of seeing what others NEED in their life... and i want others to know what i NEED... so here it goes... my essentials:

The Bag: just a normal laptop bag with a nice number of pockets for verious different things... including my laptop.
Macbook and Powercord: my beloved macbook... it might look a bit rough around the edges... but it gets the job done, and i love it... and pretty much can't live w/out it.
Marble Cross Necklace: made from marble from Ireland, marble you can only get in Ireland... a friend of mines grandmother gave it to me for my birthday when i was down in Florida visiting my friend, i stayed with her grandmother, and she was kind enough to get me this, it was in a key chain form originally... and then it broke cause i threw my keys across the warehouse back at the fixture house... i was able to glue it back together with this crazy glue that can glue anything, EVEN STONE! now it signifies much more about who i am, and where i am spiritually... i wear it as a reminder.
Diesel Aviator Sunglasses: the worst investment ever... kinda. i spent WAY to much on these sunglasses... but because i spent so much i REFUSE to loose them, or break them... so therefor i've kept them for 3 summers now. AND they're stylish.
Captain Black Pipe Tobacco: just some pipe tobacco i got from the local "smoker friendly" type store by my house... i needed some pipe tobacco for my pipe... so i got some. i like it, its not too fruity like some pipe tobacco I've had... and i like the way the pouch looks.
G1 USB Cord: a necessity to connect my phone to my computer, to either charge my phone or transfer pictures.
Engraved Metal Business Card Holder: i used to keep my business cards in my wallet, my wallet has a sweet little pocket on the outside for just such a purpose... the only problem is then they get all messed up, from being underneath me all day... every day. so i decided i needed a better way to hold them, and keep them safe. so i purchased this nice business card holder. it also looks way cooler when i take that out to give someone a business card. i normally get at least one "ooh" or "aaahh"
Pen and Mini Moleskine Notebook: for writing things in, sometimes its just easier to break out a pen and some paper to get something down... i know in this day and age we have so many technological ways of storing information... but you can't beat a simple pen and paper
Pipe and Box of Matches: my trusty pipe... it just feels better to have a nice pipe when you're having a deep intellectual conversation about the universe, God or quantum physics... its useful for pointing, and just having something in your mouth while you're thinking... and if you've ever smoked a pipe... you know how necessary it is to have a ton of matches... a whole box even.
T-mobile G1: the google phone... who needs an iphone or a blackberry storm when you have a physical keyboard, open source OS... and GOOGLE backing you up... sure its still in its infancy... it still has a lot of growing to do, but I'm totally willing to be there for its growing... there's always something new and interesting to do with it... and Google Voice rocks your face off!
80gig iPod Classic: another thing i can NOT live w/out... if you know me at all you know that 80% of the time i have my iPod on me, and I'm listening to something... most likely an audiobook... but sometimes music. Especially not having a stereo in my car, this is a NECESSITY.
Earbuds: i go through headphones like nobodies business... mainly because I'm using them all the time. so these are my current headphones... and have actually held up quite well. we'll see though... we'll see...
Keys: obviously i need my keys... you know, to drive my car... and get into my house. i have a few keys on there that i don't really know what they go to... but oh well. i also keep a mini-usb to usb adapter, its tiny and pretty much doubles as a 1gig jump drive. it also lets me transfer stuff from a computer to my phone if i don't have the USB cord or don't feel like getting it out.
6 Sided Dice: never leave home w/out it. need to make a decision, its there. bored somewhere... play a dice game... dice are priceless.
Mini Pocket Knife / Bottle Opener: very handy for cutting open those stupid plastic packages that are impossible to open... also good for bottles.
My Wallet: for holding money, my overtons ID badge, and various cards... its not a bad wallet at all. Gets the job done.
*NOTE: NOT SEEN HERE*
Casio Digital Watch: I've had a Casio digital watch since i was in 4th grade... my first one lasted till i was a freshman in college... even if the strap did not, and i decided I'm never going to get anything other than a Casio watch ever again. the batter lasts FOREVER! i never take off my watch except at night, so i have a great watch tan. i think its a shame that people have stopped wearing watches... watches are great.

Disappointing...

Recently i've felt that my dreams are not epic enough to write about... i think i might have built up too much expectation from my previous dreams that now, when i have "normal" dreams (however much i can have "normal" dreams) i think about writing them down, but then think that they are just not exciting enough... and not worth the time. i had a dream last night that an old friend of mine who i haven't seen in years, gabby, came up to visit... and it was nice to see her, even if it was a dream. Some how we ended up trying to cure cancer... and succeeding... but by that time another disease that was way worse than cancer was out there... and apparently cancer had dwindled down to be not that much of a threat... something about only 21% or 21 people in a 100 or something died from cancer anymore... which depending on how that works... is still a great deal... but we cured it either way...

see, that wasn't very epic... no zombies, no saving the world, no giant pink bunnies shooting lazers out their nose...

oh well, its all i got. be happy about it.

Thursday, August 6, 2009

Avalanche


i think most of the time i just take things in stride... i handle stressful situations pretty well. i normally look at the bright side of things, or im ok with the realism of a situation and realize that there is no gain in feeling sorry for myself, or being upset cause it wont help anyone... but honestly... i think i just bottle it all up inside. cause every once in a while, something will happen, some plan will fall through, or some idea i had will end up being false... and my whole world will crumble... and i'll fall apart, about everything... and i will feel the weight of the world in full force...

im feeling it now.

i know it wont last, i know that tomorrow i'll be fine, but that never changes ANYTHING. i still feel the way i feel now, and it still sucks, and my situation hasn't changed what so ever... and for the moment, i am blinded by the present, and can not see the future, and i hate it!

i want so much, i give so much... why can't i just get a little bit back? whatever... it doesn't matter. i'll stop now.