Thursday, June 11, 2009

My mind is out to get me!

See... i've told people this before, that my mind tries its hardest to depress me as much as possible through my dreams. you all laugh and think im joking. well im not. normally, after some sort of break up, right when im doing pretty good, finally getting over the person... my mind will conjure up these dreams where me and said recent ex or whatever get together and are all happy and everything is wonderful. so when i wake up, i realize it was all a dream, and realize i miss this person like crazy... and it just ruins whatever progress i've made getting over them. Well... with my recent situation my mind tried this... and FAILED in my dream said ex-situation-person tried to get back with me, tried to date me... and i kinda went along with it... but i didn't really care about her, cause she was crazy. i was sorta just like, "eh... im not doing anything else... might as well" so when i woke up from that dream, i laughed... and was not depressed at all... and i shook my fist at my mind and said, "HA, nice try!" well... i spoke to soon. last night, my mind struck again. it realized that it couldn't win by trying to entice me with my most recent situation, cause i had no desire to be with said person. so it mixed all the good qualities of that person, and all the good qualities of my last girlfriend together and had me date HER this wonderful woman who doesn't exist... so not only when i woke up did i realize that this person didn't exist... and that i was in-fact alone and not dating this awesome person... but now i miss BOTH of them... given not really as much as i have in the past... cause i still remember the reasons why i DONT like either of them, and why i WOULDN'T date either of them again... but it still sucked. curse my mind and its evil plans!!!

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